Ebb and Flow

I sometimes feel like life with CHD is like the ebb and flow of the ocean. It sometimes is in the forefront of my daily life, crashing down on everything, and sometimes, it is way in the background, just a gentle reminder here and there. My health heavily influences where we are in that cycle, but even during the stable, “healthy” times, CHD can sometimes make its presence known in my day-to-day life.

CHD can be that little motivator. I have really been trying to maximize my current state of health and be as active as I can. While daily life can get in the way, I often find myself thinking two things:

1. Why didn’t I really get fit and stay fit when I was younger (and healthier)?
2. And, knowing too well what it is like not to be able to be active, do it now!

Now the first thought is just plain silly, I know. I am sure most people regret many things they did or didn’t do in the past. What happened happened. But the second thought gets my butt on a walk, makes me think twice about my diet, and is a good motivator in prioritizing what I do want to do. That thought—do it now—is enough some days to push my limits and keep me moving.

Realizing there is plenty I cannot control when it comes to my heart, I do feel better controlling the few things I can. What it also gives me is hope that a few years down the road I will look back and not lament what I could have been doing when I can’t.

Like the ocean, I have no idea what this life with CHD will bring going forward, but I hope to ride the waves as best I can.