Conquering Control Issues at the Canyon

A few weeks ago I went to Purgatory Chasm for a hike with my sister and her family. One thing I love about my current state of “heart healthy” is doing things like this—being out in nature, enjoying the elements. As we walked, we talked about going to the Grand Canyon. I am all for the concept of visiting the canyon, just not so much a mule ride.

So I spent the rest of the hike adamantly proclaiming I could hike down the canyon (no, I am not so naive to think I can hike up—still working out that plan!). Now, mind you, I know I am a heart patient, but still, I am all for the hike down one of the seven natural wonders of the world!

Last night, at dinner, we did a revisit of the Grand Canyon conversation with our good friends and again, my plan to walk down over riding a mule. Through the course of the talk I was willing to admit two things: First, my fear of the mule ride is nothing more than my fear of being out of control. I like control over things I can and that has a lot to do with the little control I have over my health. Yes, I can and do everything I can to stay “heart healthy,” but that may not always be enough. And that is scary!

The second thing I can admit is this: I feel great. I can do things I could not do two years ago. But that can last a long time or a short time. I want to do what I can, while I can. And, right now, there is no reason why I can’t hike to the bottom of a canyon!

If we can put together the trip, Grand Canyon, here I come! And, I guess I will have to conquer my control issues at the same time with that mule ride out!